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madame
hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Thursday, October 19, 2006 8:32 AM
today is O level Practical and GRADUATION DAY!! sigh. really cannot bear to leave this school with something undone.

why is it that you cannot accept? why is it that i'm hurt so much by you and these hurts are forgotton when i recalled the memories that we had together. perhaps, you don't remember the memories, but i will never forget. you are the one who made me hurt so deeply and i just cannot concentrate on my studies anymore. the words you said, hurt me too much. but still, i don't blame you. i really wish for that day to come. i will pray for it to come. meanwhile, congrats to you that you no longer have to see me.

i promise never to make you cry, and i will treat you right. but now, i cannot make it. i want to let go, but i just could not. is this like what she said as not worth it? but why is it that i have become so immatured to be affected by relationships and be so stupid to keep giving to a relationship when the other party do not appreciate at all? everyday i wake up, i told myself to love you lesser, but when i didn't see you, i dreamt of you being by my side. i'm disappointed when i woke up to realise that you are not by my side at all. i will promise you eternity when you accept my love for you,but now, it's all too late. today is the day i leave school and when i come back next year, there will be many things that are different. you will be different.

you know i miss you? don't tell me all these words, do you know how much it hurt? you took my heart away, mend it, but at the same time, you destroyed it with ur own hands. now that you are gone, all i can leave is the memories. in memories, i'm rich, but i'm not satisfied with just these memories. i want more. after some time, i finally made up my mind that you are the one whom i want to be with. i'm searching everywhr for you, to tell you that i love you and sorry for the things that i've done. i found you, but you look so happy. what can i do? what can i say? what should i do? give upp or hang on? i'm goin home with a heavy heart, wishing to go back to the time when we were more than friends. i would go back and recall all the memories. all i want to say is not how pitiful i am. but i just want to tell you, i'm very happy for the past one year, though many hurts and scars, but the memories are there. i miss you and i love you. muacks.